Secrets of the Sohmas

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Chapter One
The Note

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Kyo sat and read the letter that was left by his bed when he woke up that morning. It was in a girl’s handwriting, Tohru’s handwriting. Tohru had moved into Shigure's house almost a year ago and had been following Kyo and Yuki around like a love-sick puppy ever since. Especially when she realized that Kyo was a cat.
Kyo, I don't know what to say to make your pain go away. I don't know how to hold you to make you feel safe when I can't even touch you. I don't know what to sing to calm your nerves. I don't know how to whisper sweet nothings to make you giddy. I don't know how many times to say I'm sorry to make you feel better. I don't know how many boxes of chocolate it takes to make you stop crying, considering you very much like chocolate at all. I don't know your favorite color. I don't know your favorite song. I don't know your favorite movie. I don't know if you have a favorite sweater, a favorite pair of pants, a favorite pair of socks... I don't know a lot about you. But I do know one thing. I know how to say I love you and mean it. Even if I can't say it to your face or if you'll even believe it.
Kyo sighed and rumpled the paper. He knew the truth would have to come out some time or another, he just had hoped it would be after he left for another four months. But if she was not admitting to him that she liked him, he had to tell her. And then he’d have to threaten her. No one else could know, but he wouldn’t deal with anymore chocolate or grins when she saw him, or especially any more of these letters.
So Kyo did the only thing he could do, he stood up and changed and walked out of his room to find Tohru. Kyo walked into the kitchen like he did every morning and there was Tohru, standing at the stove making something that smelled delicious for everyone to eat.
“Good morning, Kyo!” She said in her chipper voice, “I hope you slept well. We’re having Miso Soup and Rice Balls for breakfast, have a seat, its  almost done.”
Kyo sighed and sat down where he normally did, “Uh… Tohru… can I talk to you?”
“Of course you can, Kyo. You can always tell me what’s on your mind.” She said adding a few more spices to the soup before turning it off and giving it a finale stir. “What’s up?”
“About your note…”
“Oh… oh you read it?” She looked down at the ground, “Kyo, I had to tell you how I really feel… I mean-” She looked back up and Kyo was standing in front of her. She stopped talking when she stared into his red-orange eyes.
“No, don’t… be sorry about the letter, Tohru.”
“You mean, you like me too? I never dreamed this could be happening to me. Well, of course I dreamed it, but I mean I never thought you’d actually like me-”
“Tohru would you stop babbling and let me get to damn words out.” He snapped loosing his temper a bit with the girl. “That’s not what I meant to say…”
“Its not… you don’t like me do you? Its that girl from school, isn’t it. The one who tried to give you chocolate. Wait no, it must be Kagura, you really love her don’t you. I know I cant hug you like she can, but I can do so much more, Kyo! I meant what I said, Kyo-Kyo! I really do love you!”
“Tohru-”
“I mean, you know the curse of the cat doesn’t bother me. I love cats, I’ve always liked the cat from the Zodiac, I told you that the day I met you, remember?”
“Tohru-”
“I mean, I know I probably sounded weird since I kinda hit you because I thought you were a stalker, but it was an accident! I-”
“TOHRU!”
“Yes?” She asked looking back up at him.
“I’m gay.”
She stared at him. Of all the things she thought he was going to say, THAT was not one of them. “Wh… what?” She stammered. For the first time, Tohru Honda was lost for words.
“My god Tohru, do I fucking have to spell it out for you? G. A. Y. I am gay. I like boys. I like deh penis. I do not like girls. I don’t like Kagura. I don’t like the girl from school. And I Don’t. Like. You!”
Tears filled Tohru’s eyes at Kyo’s harsh words. “Kyo… I…” She turned away from him and ran out the door, tears failing behind her.
“Wait, Tohru! That’s not what I meant! Oh shit… Yuki and Shigure are going to kill me.”

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Ayame, Haru, and Shigure sat at the table around noon. Yuki had gone out earlier that day to look for Tohru who had gone off this morning. Though no one knew why.
“Kyo, do you know where Tohru went?” Shigure asked him when he finally came downstairs to see Kyo staring at the closed door.
“What? Because she‘s gone your automatically going to blame me?! How am I going to know where that stupid girl went? God damn you Shigure, you just piss me off!”
“All I asked is if you knew where she went…”
“AH! I’m out of here… make that damn rat go and find her!”
“Kyo… please don’t…” SMASH “Ruin the house again…” He shook his head and walked the opposite way.
“And that’s what happened this morning. Kyo just ran off. Tohru hasn’t been seen all morning. And Yuki went out about an hour ago to find both of them; though I don’t really think he cares where Kyo went.” Shigure finished telling the story to Haru and Ayame with tears running down his face. “And all I asked was if he knew where Tohru went. I was so upset when he yelled at me.”
“Shigure stop whining. You know Kyo has a bad temper. He was probably just hungry and Tohru hadn’t cooked yet.” Haru said reading a book only half listening to the two best friends.
Shigure thought before shaking his head. “Impossible, you see breakfast was already ready when I came down here.”
Haru looked over the top of his book at Shigure, “Well then-”
“Wouldn’t it be magical is Yuki found Tohru and they admitted their love for each other. It would be a magical moment. Another day for Yuki’s romance! If only she was wearing the dress I designed. I think I may just give it to Tohru, it did look quite cute on her.”
“I’m sorry, Aya, but Yuki and Tohru will never be together. Tohru is in love with Kyo. Or have you never noticed?” Shigure mentioned.
“No, no, Shigure. Kyo is distained to be with Kagura, she does love his so.” Ayami retorted.
“Kyo cannot stand Kagura, no matter how much she loves him.” Shigure sighed, “Though it would be easier on my house if he wouldn’t ignore her so.”
“Well, then it’s settled, Tohru will be with Yuki, and Kyo will be with Kagura! It’s the perfect combination for them.”
“No, no. I swear Aya, Yuki and Tohru will never be. Kyo needs Tohru to love him as no one else can. Ah young love. And you know, Tohru is rather a catch.”
“I still think you are wrong, my dear Shigure. Haru, what do you think?” Aya asked looking at the cow.
“I think you’re both idiots and you’re both giving me a headache. Tohru will never be with Yuki,” Shigure grinned, “Or Kyo.” Ayami grinned.
“Wait, what?” The friends asked together.
“You are both idiots if you haven’t realized that our own little Kyo and Yuki are gay.” Hatsuharu said pushing back his white hair from his eyes.
“Ahahahahhahahhah! Oh you silly cow. I would know better then anyone if my own little brother was gay. It would only be my duty as a big brother to notice something like that.” Ayami said laughing still.
“That would be your duty, Ayami Sohma. If you would take more then an outwards glance at Yuki. And to not notice Kyo being gay is stupidity on both of your parts.”
Shigure held in his laugh at the cow. “Well, then lets make a bet on it. Whoever wins-”
“Whoever wins gets whatever they want.” Haru said looking over his book once more.
“Alright, sounds fair.” Ayami said, “And Haru if you win, which I know you wont because my little brother is not gay, what will you choose?”
“I will cut your hair myself and dye it pink.”
The snakes eyes grew wide and stared at the cow in disbelief. “I don’t think that quite counts.”
“Well, Ayami, if you are so sure Yuki is not gay. Then you should have no problem with this bet.”
“Your right! And Ayami Sohma will never back down from something like this! I will take your bet Hatsuharu Sohma! And I will win. Ahahahahhahahhah!”
“How can you stand him?” Haru asked looking at Shigure.
“He has his qualities…” Shigure said certainly.

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“Miss Honda, I thought I’d find you here.” Yuki said walking over to her at their secret base. “Though I must admit, I didn’t expect to see you looking so upset. Is something bothering you?”
“Oh Yuki! No, nothings wrong at all. I’m perfectly fine, see?” She smiled at him but it quivered and her head fell, “No… not everything is okay. Yuki, I showed you the letter to Kyo. You said it would be okay to give it to him. You wouldn’t have told me that if you knew he was gay, would you?”
Yuki looked surprised, “Kyo is gay?”
Tohru nodded, “He was so mean about it took. I was confused because he was acting like he liked me back and then said he was gay…”
“My god Tohru, do I fucking have to spell it out for you? G. A. Y. I am gay. I like boys. I like deh penis. I do not like girls. I don’t like Kagura. I don’t like the girl from school. And I Don’t. Like. You!”
“I was so hurt… I just… ran. I didn’t know what to say to him after that. It’s silly really. I would have never thought Kyo was gay. My mom used to say… she would say that sometimes you refuse to see some things in the people you love. So maybe that was just it. I was so in love with Kyo I just wouldn’t see he was gay. Hearing that would be like hearing Shigure or Hatsuharu saying that they’re gay.”
“Well… actually Miss Honda, it’s a known fact that Shigure and Ayami are no stranger to each other in any way. And Haru is actually quite fond of males. Though has been with a few females. And even though I was too young to admit it years ago, I am also gay.”
Tohru stared at Yuki in shock, “Is this another Sohma family secret? That everyone is gay?” The little rice ball looked so hurt that Yuki felt bad for her.
“I’m sorry if it seemed like we were hiding it. Though it is obvious Kyo must have been from Shigure and I, none of the rest of us hide who we like. I believe that Hatsuharu did tell you I was his first love?”
“Oh yeah… I guess that is right. Heh… wow Yuki… I don’t know what to do.”
“Let Kyo calm down and try to talk to him. After all, I’m not so sure you were supposed to tell anyone his secret.”
“Do you think Kyo is going to hate me?”
Yuki gave her his smile, “I don’t think so. It’s probably just going to be a while until he calms down.”
“Thanks Yuki…” Tohru said whipping the tears away from her eyes. “Well, I guess I should get back. I’m sure everyone must be starving by now.”
“Yes, Shigure was complaining when I left.”

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